Last day in El Ray. Have some Intelli iced-coffee I refrigerated from last night. Still great black. No need for creams or sugars. Put it in a can! All caramel & moody. Last night we also stopped at Videots, this great movie rental place on Pico in Santa Monica. Not a whole lot for sale I was interested in. But they had 2 movies of my choice for rent. "Reckless" with Aiden Quinn & Daryl Hannah, a Jackie Dante choice. One he bought at Video Return in Strongsville. Our date or whatever that was. Says the big dance scene in it makes him think of me. Silly, Maybe Aiden Quinn's freak outs. He's a maniac! Haven't seen the rest of the movie though. They also had "The Gate II" of course. none for sale. And I won't be aorund long enough to rent anything. So the idea of the place must be enough to satiate me. I guess it is. Quentin Tarantino signed Reservoir Dogs poster in the store. I'm sure if dad would have been there, he'd have talked the ears off of some of those clerks. Wouldn't have known what hit 'em. Knowing how dad loves to talk, and how he has so much to talk about. I wish he had been there. But him, Peter, & Daryl ran off to San Pedro.
11 am - "The car is all happy. Extra pep today! All this traffic. Who are all these brown people? This is the best weather I've ever been in, I think I'll stay here." says the Mazda. Picking Shelby up from her canceled class. "I'm hungry". Benny recommends Coca-Cola, "Sandwich-in-a-can". Holds it up smiling.
Kings Hawaiian. They give too many rolls. Can't eat them and expect to finish any food you order Not enough time in Los Angeles to do things we all want to do. Too many people involved. Too far to drive. Benny annoyed at me taking so many pictures. Shelby's always hungry. Gotta make everybody happy. Talking about nervous airplane shit. I'd rather not think about it. Planes. Why I don't like.
4 pm - Driving back from Amoeba everyone in the car is pensive. Dad and Shelby started yelling at each other up-roarously before we parked the car. "Shut-ups & Fuck-you-s" flew and Sheila ended up staying in the car the whole time. I ended up getting 24 cash for records/32 store cred. I took store credit. Damn those Minimal Wave records are so expensive. Even after the credit, I spent 40 dollars. Damn sales tax, 5, 6 dollars.
7 pm - Charged. Sitting in Jeana's kitchen next to Shelby at her counter top. Everyone together yeah? But completely walled off. Something here just doesn't work. I just can't be alright being a link between somebody who isn't sorry and someone who feels hurt and backed into a corner, what can you do? I just want to leave, I'm spending too much money. I'm tired of feeling so bad and being embarrassed because of it in front of family I don't see very often who I don't meet on most levels anyway. It's all unreal to me. I'd just rather be being entirely myself back home with Maddy. At least she gives me time. She lives her life with me. It's this bipolar atmosphere being around here. Especially between Benny and Shelby. One is content to do nthign practically, the other is little satisfied and I'm stuck between the two. Feeling bad for wanting to see some of my friends.
8:35 pm - So... Canter's Deli. Fairfax. Open all night, Jewish Deli. Supposed to meet Toulouse & Valerie. They aren't here yet. This place is sure neat. Turns out I can't take pictures in here without permission though. I did snap a couple of them before I got myself yelled at in front of pastry cases. Huge sputnik lamp on the front pillar. Beautiful.
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